OMFG.. I LOVE POKEMON..

I'm really surprised..

.. at the fact of everyone who can't accept the fact that i'm just being friendly sending messages to everyone
like im happy the people who are cheery enough to do it will respond with cheer..
but there are others.. that i know won't respond because im such a stanger..
does it really matter?
im trying to be nice..
etc etc.

im so sick of waking up without a thought of romance, or love.
i miss the days where i could wake up and know there would be someone out there who thinks about me and cares for me, and has REAL feelings for me.
its just such a great feeling to know that im that special to someone.. and that i make them feel the same way..
i have to admit my past relatonship was a blast.. but i was too childish..
and i know now how i must be.. mature.. a serious relationship that most girls want now a days.
ill give her what she needs what she wants like i always would.. but i wouldn't go to the extent of spending all my money like theres no tomorrow.
yes maybe i have been denying it to myself.. i do feel lonely.. VERY lonely.
and i try to avoid it.. but it really isn't happening.. i just realy wish i did have someone to care for.. someone i can spend my life on.
If im not doing it, my life feels like such a waste..
I have been doing things for myself.. and i am getting where im going..
but its just not satisfying enough to live on..
i keep thinking about.. DREAMING about being with someone, and when i wake up.. all i want to do is go back to sleep, because i know this life i live wont do me any good.

I just want this all to end..
I want a new beginning..
I NEED something new in my life that gives me that single piece of the puzzle in my mind, my heart that makes me feel complete.

So i ask.. Where are you?
I really need my super woman.

2008 is at an end.

2008 is almost over bold what has happened this year

lost a friend
stayed single almost the whole year
kissed someone new
made-out in a car
made-out on a couch
kissed in the snow
kissed in the rain
fell in love
had your heart broken
fell up stairs
walked into a glass door
broke someone elses heart
had a stalker
questioned your sexual orientation
came out of the closet
got pregnant
got somebody else pregnant
had an abortion
got married
had a divorce
had a gay marriage
kissed someone of the same sex
date someone you'll never forget
found someone you really loved or thought so at the time
lost faith in love for a while
done something you've regretted
lost someone
kissed under mistletoe
caught a shoplifter
been caught shoplifting
got a promotion
got a pay raise
changed jobs
lost your job
quit your job
applied for a job
dated a co-worker
dated your boss
dated your boss' daughter/son
got fired from your job
got straight A's
met one teacher you really like
met one teacher you really hate
found one thing you love doing
failed a class
cut class
taken/smoked drugs
got into a verbal fight with a class mate
got into a fist fight with a class mate
did something you were proud of
discovered a new talent
gave the teachers a reason to teach
proved to yourself that you're an idiot
embarrassed yourself in front of the class
fell in love with a teacher
was in a school play
were involved in something you'll never forget
got sent to the office
painted a picture
wrote a poem
ran a mile
listened to music you cant stand
double dipped
skinny-dipped
went to a sleep over
went camping
threw a surprise party
had a party thrown for you
laughed til you cried
slept the whole day
flirted with a girl or girlfriend
visited a different country
cooked a gross meal
lost something important to you
got a gift you adore
realized something new about yourself
went on a diet
tried to gain weight
tripped over a coffee table
dyed your hair
came close to losing your life
lost someone close to you
went to a party
drank alcohol
drank alcohol underage got drunk
read a great book
saw a great movie
pretended to like someone
saw a movie that made you cry
saw one of your favourite bands/artists live
saw someone famous in person
got sick
passed out on a floor
met new people
played video games
enjoyed this year overall