im so sick of waking up without a thought of romance, or love.
i miss the days where i could wake up and know there would be someone out there who thinks about me and cares for me, and has REAL feelings for me.
its just such a great feeling to know that im that special to someone.. and that i make them feel the same way..
i have to admit my past relatonship was a blast.. but i was too childish..
and i know now how i must be.. mature.. a serious relationship that most girls want now a days.
ill give her what she needs what she wants like i always would.. but i wouldn't go to the extent of spending all my money like theres no tomorrow.
yes maybe i have been denying it to myself.. i do feel lonely.. VERY lonely.
and i try to avoid it.. but it really isn't happening.. i just realy wish i did have someone to care for.. someone i can spend my life on.
If im not doing it, my life feels like such a waste..
I have been doing things for myself.. and i am getting where im going..
but its just not satisfying enough to live on..
i keep thinking about.. DREAMING about being with someone, and when i wake up.. all i want to do is go back to sleep, because i know this life i live wont do me any good.

I just want this all to end..
I want a new beginning..
I NEED something new in my life that gives me that single piece of the puzzle in my mind, my heart that makes me feel complete.

So i ask.. Where are you?
I really need my super woman.